I’ll be there for you

Friend. We all know what the word entails. Someone who is there for you no matter what. Someone who you can trust. Someone you can be yourself with.

After half a year back in Canada, I reflect on how much my life would suck without friends. I would like to tell you all about my awesome summer here in Vancouver. But I would rather write about something for us to think about, something I have always known but never really said out loud. 

You know, I have recently lived an experience, which I am still a bit shaken off from. I have not been able to sleep properly for a week now and I am still a bit freaked out by it. I thought I was going to die (don’t worry, mum, I’m fine). It is not like I was in real danger (at least I believe I was not), it was my mind playing tricks on me making me believe I would not wake up the next day. But why am I saying this? It is because no matter how traumatic it was, I know I will be fine because of all the support from my friends. And because all I could think of at that particular moment was my family and my friends. And I realize, more than ever now, no matter where I am, the people is what makes your life whole. 

I am aware people do not express their feelings much anymore. People put up on poker face “just to be cool” so no one can judge them for being too sensitive or caring too much. Do we really need alcohol and chemicals to show a bit of love for one another? I am honestly sick of pretending I do not care about people around me. Because I do. And maybe I care too much. And I keep hearing people saying I should not be like this or that. But you know, it is who I am. 

Everyone knows I am super social person. I can’t imagine my life without people surrounding me. The past year and a half has been very difficult for all of us. It is not just me. All of us have been affected by the stupid pandemic. Lack of social encounters, lack of hugging your loved ones, thinking twice about kissing that guy. :)) This has become “new normal” for us. Even though we pretend we do not care, we did get affected a lot and our social life might never be the same. 

I’d like to think the pandemic has not affected me much. I try to pretend I am happy working from home (for a year and a half now). I am not. I hate it. I miss my coworkers. I like my job but I like it because of the people I work with. And I miss going to the office, having lunch with my colleagues. The happiest time at my job now is the “happy hour” at a co-working centre. And not just because of the free beers. :)). After a long time, I can finally hang out with fellow professionals. Having real conversations about our businesses and lives.

So, why did I decide to share all of this with you? I guess I wanted to remind people that we do need social encounters. Even though it is hard to go out when you feel like staying home watching Netflix (btw, the last season of Lucifer pretty sucks so far). 

So, let’s go out even if we don’t feel like it. Text that friend you have not seen for a long time. Go to a nice brewery. To a concert. Organize a movie night. Just do not be alone. Because we have been alone for a long time now.